It's been a lot of days since I posted something. A while back I went to see my psychiatrist for an appointment and he prescribed some new stuff for me. Paxil. It sounds like it doesn't contain any serotonin/sertraline like the Serdep pills. I gradually moved over to Paxil from Serdep (probably like Zoloft). I would say I didn't feel too tired thanks to the gradual process.
My feelings might be triggered more from anxiety than depression, but I am thinking of asking him if I could stay on at least half a Serdep pill a day to help a bit with depression.
I think the Paxil pills might be working for me at the moment, at least on the anxiety side.
There's this book I've read a bit out of called Cognitive Behavioural Therapy for Dummies. It's quite interesting and I found an ABC method involving writing down A - activating event, B - beliefs, C - consequences. That's the basic part of it I would say. I think it is to make you aware of a situation and writing down a more positive way of thinking about a certain event.
I have also read a bit about confidence and think that more confident people think about situations in a more positive, learn from it type of way.
Wednesday, August 12, 2015
Sunday, July 5, 2015
History of OCD, depression and anxiety
"Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder in which people have unwanted and repeated thoughts, feelings, ideas, sensations (obsessions), or behaviors that make them feel driven to do something (compulsions).Often the person carries out the behaviors to get rid of the obsessive thoughts, but this only provides temporary relief. Not performing the obsessive rituals can cause great anxiety. A person's level of OCD can be anywhere from mild to severe, but if severe and left untreated, it can destroy a person's capacity to function at work, at school or even to lead a comfortable existence in the home."
- https://www.psychologytoday.com/conditions/obsessive-compulsive-disorder
When I was young, I used to wash my hands obsessively, so you could say I had an OCD for hygiene. I was probably 5 or something. This issue has gone away after some time.
In primary school, I developed OCD again due to a fear of unreasonable things. The fear was if I don't do something a certain amount of times, unreasonable things can happen. It sounds pretty silly, even for people with OCD, but it's hard to help it, because it becomes a habit to do something a certain way or certain amount of times. There are many forms of OCD.
I went to see a psychologist on a regular basis to help me cope. It definitely helped me and, if I can recall correctly, I went on Zoloft. Now that I see OCD is an anxiety disorder, my issue might lie more on the anxiety side. I think anxiety can cause depression and vice versa, and that anxiety is the fear of something, while depression is the focus on the negative. So it's as if anxiety is more about things in the future, and depression, things about now.
In school, I was quite the quiet person. I didn't talk a lot to people I don't know really well. I was and still am quite sensitive to people when they express anger or aggressive behavior. Sometimes today I just run out of things to say to new people because I'm not sure what their interests are. Today, I might have a fear of saying something boring that the other person is not interested in if I don't know them well.
In high school, I went through a shy phase with girls. I also struggled with depression and later, went on Serdep.
After university I had symptoms of anxiety which could sometimes get really high. And from there, I would say I developed social anxiety. I went to see a psychiatrist and I am also on Fluanxol now. The OCD seems to be minimal, but a fear of not checking something obsessively still occurs, but OCD doesn't bother me as much as it has before.
If you're prescription renewal happens a (few) days after you're pills have finished, like mine at the moment. Just hold on. I think I had a bit of a withdrawal yesterday, but some good music helped me. Make sure you listen to positive lyrics and music though, even if you are a rock/metal fan like me.
- https://www.psychologytoday.com/conditions/obsessive-compulsive-disorder
When I was young, I used to wash my hands obsessively, so you could say I had an OCD for hygiene. I was probably 5 or something. This issue has gone away after some time.
In primary school, I developed OCD again due to a fear of unreasonable things. The fear was if I don't do something a certain amount of times, unreasonable things can happen. It sounds pretty silly, even for people with OCD, but it's hard to help it, because it becomes a habit to do something a certain way or certain amount of times. There are many forms of OCD.
I went to see a psychologist on a regular basis to help me cope. It definitely helped me and, if I can recall correctly, I went on Zoloft. Now that I see OCD is an anxiety disorder, my issue might lie more on the anxiety side. I think anxiety can cause depression and vice versa, and that anxiety is the fear of something, while depression is the focus on the negative. So it's as if anxiety is more about things in the future, and depression, things about now.
In school, I was quite the quiet person. I didn't talk a lot to people I don't know really well. I was and still am quite sensitive to people when they express anger or aggressive behavior. Sometimes today I just run out of things to say to new people because I'm not sure what their interests are. Today, I might have a fear of saying something boring that the other person is not interested in if I don't know them well.
In high school, I went through a shy phase with girls. I also struggled with depression and later, went on Serdep.
After university I had symptoms of anxiety which could sometimes get really high. And from there, I would say I developed social anxiety. I went to see a psychiatrist and I am also on Fluanxol now. The OCD seems to be minimal, but a fear of not checking something obsessively still occurs, but OCD doesn't bother me as much as it has before.
If you're prescription renewal happens a (few) days after you're pills have finished, like mine at the moment. Just hold on. I think I had a bit of a withdrawal yesterday, but some good music helped me. Make sure you listen to positive lyrics and music though, even if you are a rock/metal fan like me.
Quite the episode
Good day, I'm going to discuss quite the episode I had yesterday with anxiety and depression. It is something I have been living with for a while now and thought that it would be a good idea to post and write my feelings down to help me cope.
So, I decided to start this blog and to share it, because maybe, just maybe, it might help someone and make them realize they are not alone.
On the 4th of July (interesting date to begin with), I had this intense feeling of wanting to cry and a strange dizziness that only occurs once in a while. I can describe the dizziness as a light headed feeling I get everytime I turn my head. I called the pharmacy because I thought I had one more month prescription left (my prescription is Fluanxol and Serdep). Nope.
I was feeling sad, miserable and not wanting to do anything for a while. If I can recall properly, also a feeling of hopelessness and quite a quick heart pounding, and as if something heavy was laying on my chest. I started to listen to some music to help my mood. The first band was not helping me too much (I like hard rock and metal sometimes, but would not recommend most of it in such times, unless it's got positive lyrics and helps you cope), but the second band was fine.
Oh, by the way, I looked up some of the types of music people like to listen while they are depressed and came across Milo Greene - What's the Matter EP. They are awesome.
I went and read an article about depression and anxiety and how they are linked. From my experience and what I have read, the following information was drawn and focused on from the article. I'm not sure if it is correct, but it makes sense.
Anxiety is caused by fear of something. Social Anxiety, I would say, is probably the fear of being rejected, saying something stupid and looking like a fool in front of people (I am probably much more of an introvert than an extrovert because of it, I can get anxious in front of people). I think my biggest fear in social situations is not being able to start/continue a conversation and cause an enduring silence to happen and, if I get too comfortable in a social situation, to cause people to dislike me for who I really am.
Depression is the feeling of hopelessness and not wanting to do anything or get excited by something. The irony of depression is that it can be curable, but it might cause one to think that it's not.
The two can go hand in hand when depression causes you to not do anything and anxiety makes you think about the negative things that could happen, causing you to not want to do anything even more.
When I get depressed, it can cause me to just chill and relax in my own comfort zone at home, or even cause me to not want to go to gym. Even though gym can help my anxiety and depression. The key here might be to get a gym partner or to really push myself harder than most people to go.
I know gym can help a lot if you haven't tried it out. My next appointment is not too far in the future, so I should be on prescription again soon.
So, I decided to start this blog and to share it, because maybe, just maybe, it might help someone and make them realize they are not alone.
On the 4th of July (interesting date to begin with), I had this intense feeling of wanting to cry and a strange dizziness that only occurs once in a while. I can describe the dizziness as a light headed feeling I get everytime I turn my head. I called the pharmacy because I thought I had one more month prescription left (my prescription is Fluanxol and Serdep). Nope.
I was feeling sad, miserable and not wanting to do anything for a while. If I can recall properly, also a feeling of hopelessness and quite a quick heart pounding, and as if something heavy was laying on my chest. I started to listen to some music to help my mood. The first band was not helping me too much (I like hard rock and metal sometimes, but would not recommend most of it in such times, unless it's got positive lyrics and helps you cope), but the second band was fine.
Oh, by the way, I looked up some of the types of music people like to listen while they are depressed and came across Milo Greene - What's the Matter EP. They are awesome.
I went and read an article about depression and anxiety and how they are linked. From my experience and what I have read, the following information was drawn and focused on from the article. I'm not sure if it is correct, but it makes sense.
Anxiety is caused by fear of something. Social Anxiety, I would say, is probably the fear of being rejected, saying something stupid and looking like a fool in front of people (I am probably much more of an introvert than an extrovert because of it, I can get anxious in front of people). I think my biggest fear in social situations is not being able to start/continue a conversation and cause an enduring silence to happen and, if I get too comfortable in a social situation, to cause people to dislike me for who I really am.
Depression is the feeling of hopelessness and not wanting to do anything or get excited by something. The irony of depression is that it can be curable, but it might cause one to think that it's not.
The two can go hand in hand when depression causes you to not do anything and anxiety makes you think about the negative things that could happen, causing you to not want to do anything even more.
When I get depressed, it can cause me to just chill and relax in my own comfort zone at home, or even cause me to not want to go to gym. Even though gym can help my anxiety and depression. The key here might be to get a gym partner or to really push myself harder than most people to go.
I know gym can help a lot if you haven't tried it out. My next appointment is not too far in the future, so I should be on prescription again soon.
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